Were you waiting for love? Want to know what love really is?
Most of my teenage life was filled with images of my parents’ separation, the ugliness of it, the fear… and then the betrayal when my mom accepted my dad back into our lives without any warnings. I felt lost, I felt betrayed and alone… She put us in a safe house when I was fifteen, took us away from the town we knew, the friends we loved, and then without asking us, without talking to any of us children about dad, she just lets him in. One morning he was just there, in the house, like he had always been there, as if nothing happened. Fortunately for me, or him, I found God, and I learned to love and forgive. His love made it easier to accept and forgive…but that did not dissolve what was in my heart, a seed of anger and a sense of unworthiness.
It was not until I went away to college and attended a small/medium size church in Santa Cruz that I start dealing with the anger inside of me. It came from feeling betrayed and feeling helpless. I had to undo everything that was done and let go. One of the first things I learned was from a very sweet lady, she was probably in her sixties (I could not tell because every time I look at this beautiful soul, I only see the spirit of a child), at this church was love, truth, and honesty – to myself. And this is what I want to share with you first and foremost.
I want you to do a very simple exercise that my friend went over with me and it changed my outlook on life and myself. Read the verses below.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.”
~1 Cor 13: 4-8
Yes, I know, these verses are one of the most used verses to explain and describe love in the Christian world. To most, they are over used and the significant meaning of these words have faded in importance. I want to show you another way of looking at them and hopefully they will open your eyes to a whole new level of what love is and can be, as love is the inspirations for this blog.
Now the next step in this activity is for you to replace every “love” word you see and every “it” word that refers to love with your name.
“(Your name) is patient, (Your name) is kind. (Your name) does not envy, (Your name) does not boast, (Your name) is not proud. (Your name) does not dishonor others, (Your name) is not self-seeking, (Your name) is not easily angered, (Your name) keeps no record of wrongs. (Your name) does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. (Your name) always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
(Your name) never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.”
This is how I remember it and how I will remember myself and remind myself that I AM WORTHY of everything and will not settle for anything less in my life. I am love. I am all those things mentioned in the verses – not perfect, but I am worthy of having it all returned to me as I’ve given it.
YOU are love.
Love is not something you do. You encompass, embody the very essence of love; God created us with love, He is love, therefore we are love as well. True, His love is perfect and we are babies in perfecting our love – and oh I am so very excited to keep loving, keep discovering how to love, and most importantly learn to extend my patience.
YOU are LOVE.
Have you thought of yourself as love? Did you know love is more than a feeling, that you can see it? It is a reflection of you, it is you. I would be thrilled to know how you see love, let me know in the comments below or you can email me directly here!